Now

Life

Just turned 31, and basically spent the day getting pizza (first time in a year... gotta live diet fun) and taking a 4hr phone call with my best friend. It's a simple life, and I'm all for it. And thankful that I have someone that I can literally talk about anything with.

Work

I feel like I'm hitting the hardest part of building Curve yet- how to position my company. I know at the super high, 10k foot view that I want to be that neutral, sits-in-marketing-but-still-technical type of resource that I never had, and I know that I want the brand to match my... candor. But the actual look and feel of my website? That's the hard part- especially because I can technically design it all, but I also know that I'm a C+ designer at best. So it's been a journey of trying to find the right team for helping me build it out, and finding the balance between being lean (not needing a full agency model) but also wanting something that looks badass (wanting something more than average)

Rabbit Hole

I ended up doing an updated CliftonStrength test, with some surprising results: Futuristic, Strategic, and Arranger are still top for me, but competition moved down, Includer went to the bottom, and they got swapped with Ideation and Individualization. I'm still taking it with a grain of salt, but it's interesting to think- am I less inclusive because my experience have changed since college, or is it simply that I've built up other areas? I've definately learned a strong connection with someone is rare, and it takes effort to build that friendship, so plenty to think about.

Reading

I've just started Atlas of the Heart after finishing Permission to Feel. Building a business is a big challenge for me, and I think emotional literacy basically touches every area of that- how I talk to myself, what I did and didn't learn growing up, how I show up for my (future) team, etc- and the first step of that is recognizingthe feelings when they come up.

Favorite Quote

"When we deny ourselves the permission to feel, a long list of unwanted outcomes ensues. We lose the ability to even identify what we’re feeling—it’s like, without noticing, we go a little numb inside. When that happens, we’re unable to understand why we’re experiencing an emotion or what’s happening in our lives that’s causing it." -Marc Brackett, Permission to Feel

Life

Thinking more on diet, and how mild food addiction might have a role in my life. I'm generally pretty fit, but after intentionally reducing sugar for ~2 weeks, it's interesting to see the changes, both good in terms of dropping a few pounds and generally snacking less, and the bad with a couple mood swings. One of them made me realize that my first go-to after a stressful client call was to grab a snack, when mentally I know there are muuuuch better ways to decompress, like a walk around the block.

Work

Thinking about my voice, and how to translate that into words. Going through some of my past writing about my work... it's bland and boring as shit. Sure, it might make my high school English teacher proud, but literally, anyone could have written it. I'm thinking how to get my writing closer to the way I actually speak, one way I'm exploring is Write of Passage.

Rabbit Hole

For someone that doesn't get a ton of emails (for work, most comms are in Slack or in a weekly 1:1, for everything else I either unsubscribe or auto-forward to Readwise to digest later) I realize I check email an awful lot. Sure, I like to think I'm being productive, but the more I think back, it's actually me either faking productivity, or looking for the dopamine hit that comes with new emails (ahhh yeah, order shipped!). It makes me think more about how energy rises and falls during the day, and trying not to spend my peak time (late morning) doing low-energy work (email)

Reading

Paved Paradise. Just started, but really like it. Talks about how much space we waste on parking, and how it often gets in the way of some of the bigger problems in a city (walkability, housing prices, 3rd spaces, etc)

Favorite Quote I've Found

"Through friendship, we can self-select into some of the most affirming, safe, and sacred relationships of our lives, not because of pressures from society to do so, but because we elect to do so. Cleo, who works for the government, told me that after her mother died, she felt alone and uncomfortable at the funeral. Her strained relationships with her family made her scared to break down. But when her friend Stephanie showed up, surprising her by flying in from Michigan, Cleo let herself weep" -Marisa G. Franco PhD, Platonic

Life

I've been thinking about diet a lot, and the way it impacts my mood, energy, and basically every other area of my life. Part of that is how the habits and mindsets we learn as kids are still at play. Think broccoli- I hated it as a kid, to the point that when given the choice between eating it now or sitting at the table until I did, I sat for 3 hours, but these days I actually don't mind it.

Work

Growing Curve means building a team, which means building not only around my strengths, but my weaknesses. I've been thinking about what skills I bring to the table, and how that'll shape the way I work with others. It gives me throwbacks to a StrengthsQuest test I took a decade ago in college; at the time I didn't do much with it, but a decade later it still kind of fits. If you're curious, I'm Futuristic, Strategic, Arranger, Competition, and Includer.

Rabbit Hole

Part of the diet inspiration is from feeling like shit over the last 2 years. I'll sleep for 9 hours, and still be ready for bed at 7pm. My working theory is a Candida overgrowth, which is fueled by sugar. Turns out sugar not only has the weight gain symptoms everyone knows, but it also hits things like making you feel less full, giving you dopamine hits that get into addition territory, and if taken long enough, leads to anxiety and depression. I'm still going through finding my hidden sources of it, but striving for less than 15 added grams a day.

Reading

An Astronaut's Guide to Life on Earth. Excellent read about the mindsets and life of going to space. Spoiler: actually being in space is only 1% of the job.

Favorite Quote I've Found

Stop assuming that the way to make progress on your most important projects is to work for longer. And drop the perfectionistic notion that emails, meetings, digital distractions and other interruptions ought ideally to be whittled away to practically nothing. Just focus on protecting four hours – and don't worry if the rest of the day is characterised by the usual scattered chaos. - Oliver Burkeman